Goodness.

Well, I'm a little bummed right now.

So, I'm in La Quinta right now. I'm so glad I'm able to see my cousins, especially because they feel like i have abandoned them. I want them to know that i still care for them and that i'm still here.

Well, we are all here because there is a convention in Palm Springs. I don't really know what it is about yet since I wasn't planning on going to it. This thing starts today, Friday, and end Monday. I myself was planning on going to my own church's worship conference this weekend. It started yesterday and ends Sunday. This has been my plan for about a month now.

She finally told me earlier this week that I can't go anymore. I accepted it and was fine. She said that I can learn new things from this convention and apply it to stuff for missions and LOH. I was fine with that. Also it was to reach out to my cousins here and encourage them to go to the convention.

Now that I'm finally here, she is saying that we aren't going to be going to the convention because it's a waste of $160, since i won't be there the whole time! Now, I could've gone to worship conference for only $20, and would've stayed the whole time.

So, while they are all at the convention, I'll be stuck alone.... or with my mom. Freakin why do i have to take the placement exam! gah!

On top of that, I have my orientation on the 27-28, right before i leave. It is mandatory, but there are so many things i need to do that weekend. I'm suppose to finish packing my balikbayaan boxes, our despedida, and we are in charge of both Sunday services. I can't do anything because of the orientation. I just email my advisor about it, so hopefully i get some good news.

I'm sorry I am so negative. It's just that there hasn't been much good news for me lately.

Doesn't feel like it's all over

Well, right now I am home. It doesn't feel right though. After graduating, it still didn't hit me that i will never see those people again. Oh, btw, i graduated last Thursday. I really will miss everyone, even though i don't feel it yet.

I'm so bummed right now though. I feel like I can't keep both of my groups from high school close. I feel like i have to choose one or the other. I know we are already done, but it's hard.

The same thing happened like what happened at prom.
So, here are the groups:
Group 1: Kathy, TenTen, Victor, Rohit, Romi, Tiffany, Theresa, Daniel A.
Group 2: Chelzie, Jenny, Allison, Gerianne, Madeline, Ashley, Daniel F., Daniel M.

I used to be close with group two in the beginning of HS, and as time went on, my new group became group one. I really love them both, but its just so hard. Grad nite didn't turn out the way i wanted it to. My phone never had signal the whole time and i never noticed. I was waiting for a call, and I too tried calling. I got the grp 2 before we finished and they thanked me for the shirts chelzie and I made. (btw, that took so long, so you better appreciate it.) But i spent most of my time with group 1. After grad nite i said my goodbyes to a few people. Both groups asked me to go out after, but i told them both that my mom told me to go home. So i went home.

I'm kinda grr though. I'm sure i told her. She thinks I went with group 1, (and doesn't say it to my face, but is mad at me) when i told her i had to go home.

I am so glad ER came with me though, I wouldn't have survived without him there.

... Well, now its 2AM in the morning and I started reflecting on HS, and i finally started to tear up. No more 35 minute lunches in the quad. No more Mr. Ramon. No more Key Club or ACS meetings. No more trying to avoid getting detentions. No more going to the library at nutrition and lunch trying to finish typing and printing up either a gov or english assignment. No more waiting for my mom til 6 in the library when i have no ride. No more. No more.

Although I did have some hard times at Granada, I think I will truly miss it and all the people there. And I know things yet unsettled will soon be resolved.

Haha, and the day after graduation, i thought i'd be away from there for atleast a month. Nope, i went there the next day for the banquet. Good Job Eunice! Well, i got a $20 chipotle gift card. woot woot!


Saturday, Kalayaan festival. Went okay. My mom's boss won the Wii and Guitar Hero. Hopefully he'll let us keep it.


Sunday, Pop's party. Lots of Fun. Long Boarding, Peppering (volleyball), Lakers Game, Dirty Hot Dogs. Good times.

Monday, Tennis Championships for Individuals. Dom and Aaron. Silver is NOT bad.

Tuesday, finishing up this blog. hopefully cardio kickboxing tonight.


I need to do a lot of stuff though before I leave to the PI. Leaving in now, 3 weeks. Scary. Am I prepared. I made a list of things to do on a whiteboard so my mom won't complain anymore that she doesn't know what i am doing.

Lets see:
1. Physical
2. Eyes (new contacts and glasses)
3. Health Form
4. Financial Stuff
5. All forms
6. Placement Exam
7. Support Letters
8. Immunization Record
9. VISA
10. Shirts
11. Shopping for PI
12. Orientation

Hopefully (it can't just be hopefully, it must be) I finished before i leave.

June 29. Goodbye America. Hello Philippines.

Coming to a close.

Yes, it has been a while since my last blog.

So, going back to how everything was, i was saying how excited I am for prom. Now it seems so long ago. Let's just say it was better than I expected. Usually people are so dissatisfied with prom, but for me, even though a few things may have gone wrong, I am glad about the way it all turned out.

Now, I am only 3 days from graduating. I can't wait to get out!!! It still hasn't hit me. It probably will either tomorrow or wednesday that i am not going to see all these people ever again. It's so crazy. I really hope the weather is okay by thursday, because it was freezing today. (Abby is AWESOME.) and drizzling. grrrrr...
dance! until you just cant! keep clapping your hands to the song. - Wise Words by Abby Lara (stolen from Around the Clock by the Rocket Summer)

Man, I cant even remember anything about Freshman or Sophomore year anymore. It all went by so quickly, and now its only a blur.

(oh, i never posted it, now i will, i wrote it last monday, whoops.)

2 Days Away

Prom is now two days away... I want to be excited, but it just still has not hit me. =/

Well, am I ready for it? nope.... well, today, i got my nails done. This is only my 2nd time ever to get a mani and pedi. 1st time to get acrylics. its weird.... anyway, my dress isnt done, i dont know where i am getting my hair done or my make up done. THIS ISNT GOOD. =[

Well, last weekend seemed so far away now... it was great

It my earlier blogs, I talked about finally getting AJ Rafael and Cathy Nguyen to perform.

Well, They did AMAZING at the show. WOOT WOOT! Im so glad they did.

I'm glad the show went well. We made a lot of money... yay!! more donations for Relay for Life.

So, before it began, we had to just prepare a bunch of stuff... Dude, it was DISGUSTING in the backroom... MY GOSH. there was sawdust EVERYWHERE, which i was allergic too. there was wood and stuff for cars in there. Weird props and the most random things there... OH and dead bugs in the bathroom. First me and margaret started cleaning it... then we left... when we came back... =[ I had to clean it alone... dude, i tried to sweep away as much sawdust as possible. I DID NOT want our performers to get allergies right before they performed. that would be bad....

The show started off pretty rough.... I'm sorry, but Downside Harvest... i dunno... The sound was pretty badd with a lot of the bands... even though we did have a sound check. I wonder what happened.

The mics were as loud as they could be, but their instrument's volumes were too loud... goodness... Well, nothings perfect.

So, I probably said how much I love Cathy and AJ and their music.... Well, not in that scary creepy stalker way... you know what i mean... but I was so happy I finally got to meet them... and actually talk to them... not just in that fan to celebrity way, but as a friend to a friend.

It was great! Haha, I was so sad when I wasn't ablt to meet them right away when we got there... I just walked away for one second and thats when they just happened to show up!!! goodness! welll, i made margaret introduce me =] hehe. and we asked they if they wanted pizza and water... When we were outside, i was able to have a convo with Cathy. it was really nice, just being able to talk to her. I didnt talk to AJ at this point much b/c I dunno.



Well, that was all before the show.... Well, while we were all backstage, i was able to talk to some of them. it was nice... hehe, They were in the dressing room a majority of the time though practicing. but its okay!!! haha, i talked to AJ a little and tripped in front of him. (haha, that'd be funny if he read this) and lalalala....

After the show, I asked Cathy if they wanted to go out to eat with them... and she said she wanted to but was unsure... I started talking to one of their friends. She was really nice... It was weird, it is such a small world. One of her old best friends girlfriend is my friend, who I dont want to speak of because of past drama from her. Well, we are doing okayish now, but I still have a small grudge against her sometimes. Anyway, I also asked her to go eat, and said yeah.

As we were all outside about to leave, they said they couldnt. and I gave this super sad face and pouted... haha.. and then AJ gave me his number so i could just keep in contact with him. =] well, as i was about 2-3 blocks away, Cathy called me and asked me if i wanted to still go out! and of course i said YES!



So, we went to Sanamluang!! yummm... =] it was nice, i was able to just get to know them all... i had a great time. It was AMAZING. i loved it sooo much.... hehe... yay i got to sit right across from AJ, and Cathy was right there too. =] ALL OF THEM were soooo nice.

I'm just kinda bummed. i forgot to tell the people there it was my sisters birthday... grrr....



well, once again. 2 days til prom. I hope its great. its suppose to be one of the most memorable things in your life.... so I really hope so!!!

Spring Break So Far

Well today, I am right in the middle of my break. I have two days left of actual break, then its the real weekend... I haven't had much time this whole break to just chill or relax with my friends... I was so glad that I was able to go out today. =]

So I will go in order of what has happened so far in my break.

On Saturday, we had the little remembrance service and party thing for my dad. That was really nice. A good amount of people came over and we had a service and I had to do a special number that i was so not prepared for, but its okay. I had a great time with my friends that day too... haha, i cut ER's hair again, but this time, is wasnt as painful, so i guess that better.

Sunday I went to Mount Saint Mary's for admitted students day. that was alright. my sister and my mom went with me. man, i really hope my mom lets me dorm there, or still even go there.

She's been so anal with me lately. Every little mistake I make, she makes it such a big deal and it sux, because it is not that bad. Everytime i do something wrong, she says how "unfocused" i am, and it makes me so mad, because I AM focused. grrrrr.... gahhH!!! goodness!

So anyway, Monday, I did a quiz for English, I was able to tan a little, and just watched a little TV. that was my chill by myself day. kinda.... and cleaning...

Tuesday, was the take more quizzes, clean the house, do the laundry, study for permit, get mad about Limo, try to figure out limo issue day.

Today was take 5 quizzes, look for limo stuff, get yelled at a bigillion times by a bigillion people, GET PERMIT FINALLY, vacuum floor, clean my room, FINALLY LEAVE THE HOUSE, hang out with ER and FAMILY day!! yay!!! i had so much fun today.

I think i accomplished a lot today. I'm so happy i got my permit, i kept lagging it and i was like today, i turned 17 1/2. I AM taking my permit test. and yay! i passed!!!

I felt so proud of myself for doing how much english work i did. Man, i have
soooo much more to do though.

Finally Found One

YAY! after searching for 2 hours plus the time from yesterday, i finally found a good deal for a party bus. should be only $35! yay! k. library is closing now. byebye!

Stuck Here AGAIN...

hopefully I'm about to leave now cuz i have to go to church... but im stuck here at my moms work.

i went all the way home passing by my moms work. I left my key inside, so i tried to break into my house, but it didnt work! grrr!! yay! i'm about to leave.

i hope! so anyway, i ended up here again!!


and woohooo!!! we got AJ Rafael, Cathy Nguyen, Randolph P., and a whole bunch of artist to perform at our ACS Benefit Concert!!! woo!!! I'm soooooooooo excited!!! k. got to go!!

bye bye! I LOVE YOU!

Back Again

So, I'm in the library again... the only difference this time, is that its 6th period! I just remembered the boys vball tourney is today in Redondo, so i cant go. I'm just going to wait here for Chelzie and Theresa.

Yay!! its friday again. Youth night tonight!! woohoo!!! no class tomorrow!!! yay!!!

So, I'm actually doing my driver's ed, which i think i will continue after i finish this blog! and its actually going well. At first i started actually reading the whole thing and it got annoying because it became really repetative and i basically know all the rules and stuff, so now, im just skimming more of it... unless theres something new that i see.

Well, What i didnt get to talk about in my last blog, was that i was able to visit Musson. Musson was my vball coach. She wasnt able to start off the season with us though, due to her sickness from cancer just now taking over to the point where she could not do anything, but lie in bed. Well, she is now in the hospital. It sucks so much. She is to the point where its so hard for her to communicate with others. She cannot speak and its just so hard for her to even breathe. Kathy, Margaret and I went down to Tarzana to go visit her. We all thought that when we arrived there, the place would be filled with tears. it actually wasnt. We acted like we all normally did with Musson. Super happy and Jolly. It was nice. Although she may be weak, Musson is her same self. Same old Musson...


Well, Chelzie just called and shes outside of school, so done for now!!!


and i guess no finishing drivers ed. =[

Stuck Here Again

Sooo.... once again, I'm stuck here in the library. I'm amazed that this site actually works here. They block everything else... It kinda sucks.. So the only thing i would be doing on the computer here at school is checking my email, which i was amazed wasn't blocked, because last year and the year before it used to be.

So like every other day, usually Mondays and Wednesday since Chelzie has class at Pierce, I'm usually stuck here in the library until 6. I kinda chose to stay here though. It was either stay here at the library and hopefully get some work done, or stay at my moms work and probably do nothing... well, maybe i would sleep. I LOVE SLEEP!!

I think another reason i dont mind staying here and actually having at my choice to be here is, i actually want to get some work done. Since all these sites are blocked, I'm able to do more work than usual. I want to have better study habits. Haha, now i know that this site works, I may be blogging more and doing less work. hahah, no, i wont... Well, I hope not.

Man, I'm soooo super hungry right now!!! but i have no money!! and no food. I have my card... but its not like i can use it here at school. I could just walk somewhere around here and buy food, but its RAINING!!! =[ man!!! I WANT FOOD!!! my tummy hurts from the lack of food in it!!!

hmm.... I havent blogged for a while now. Just been busy doing other things... I HAVE TO FINISH MY DRIVER'S ED THIS WEEK!!! Why this week, well i calculated it. So I wont be 18 until october so i cant just get my license then since college starts in September. Well, it is march 4 right now and 6 months from now is September, so in order for me to have my license by then, i have to get my permit now! gah!! and finish my drivers ed first, I think I should go do it now!! I basically know all the rules, so i should just skim the drivers ed.... DONT EVER DO IT ONLINE. bad choice. look what happened to me!! i was almost done too!!! man!! i'm retarded, if i just finished it, i'd have my license by now. =[

I think i actually will, I'll blog more later... =]

For Once

It's amazing... Right now, I am stuck at my mom's work... And we always stay here 'til super late. I kind of gotten used to it already... maybe I should just start driving already. I need to. I keep saying i will but i never do... I was so close to being done.

Anyway, what is amazing is that I actually did my homework and only homework. Usually, I get caught in things and am on the computer on facebook or myspace or something. I kept myself from using the computer and focused. It was nice, because I finished it really quickly.

I still have to do so much when I get home... but its still less!!! yay!!!

Well, Cathy Nguyen just emailed me back again... every time she does, i get so excited!! haha... I asked her for suggestions on who else I could ask. She told me to ask Bryan Keith and Adrian William Project. She said they're good friends of hers. So, i think I will ask them... =]

I'm getting super excited now.

Omgoodness, GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS. well, its was so awesome. I never really prayed that i wanted it, but i just wanted it.

So, last weekend while working on my physio project. I really wanted to see some kind of model for the eye. And what'd ya know....

Well, last Thursday night, while i was at Angelic's house, my eye started hurting... and I thought it was because i didnt get enough sleep, so i slept. The next after I took a shower, i looked in the mirror and i saw that my left eye was swollen! i was like WTH!

I got an appointment for my eye on monday, then we cancelled it for today. I didnt really want to go, but i just did to make sure my eye was okay. The swelling was already gone. Well, when i went today, we were in the room... My mom made me massage her so i turned to the side. When massaged her, I saw this weird round looking thing that reminded me of the webcam ER gave me... Which reminded me of an eye... Which then I thought it looked like an eye. I told my mom and she lifted it up, it was a model of the eye!! i was like woah!!! awesome!! i just wanted to see it... then Dr. Yook walked in and he saw us looking at it. I told him about my project and he said I can borrow it. I wasn't expecting that, but yay!!! I'm so happy!! Thank You God!!!

So, yeah.... I'm happy... besides the fact that I still have hours of hw to do still... =/ its okay.


And i really hope i find my clay =/. I still cant find it. I dunno how it got lost, but =/

i'm so excited for this weekend (starting Friday night). yay!!!

TGIF

Thank God it's Friday!!!

I just got back from school a few minutes ago. I'm so tired.

Today I had my physio test. Goodness, it was so hard. Not as hard as past ones, but still hard. I even studied for it and i never study. WTH! oh, well... I hope i did well...

My calc test that i took yesterday was bad though. Probably it was because Mr. Robbins graded it. Its kinda grrr!!! tho. He's only our sub, but he decided it grade the test and he's so much harder than Mr. Overton.

My butt feels like its vibrating, but then my phone is on the table.... weird....


Anyway, I'm sad now!!!


Oh, well. It's the freakin weekend. I'm about to have me some fun!!! (youth night!!)

haha....

My eye was swollen this morning. It hurts when i touch it. It's not as bad anymore, but still.

My $10 is missing, I had $14 and this morning Chelzie stole it from me as a joke and later returned it to me like a few minutes later. When i got to school I checked it when i was getting pop tarts (I usually never buy food at school. Its overpriced, but i was really hungry) and I only had $4. So i thought chelzie took it. I asked her later, and she didn't. I have one theory, but i dont wanna judge.

I will ask her before i say anything now. I will find out and post who did it in the next blog.

I didnt mean her, i meant him or her. hehe...

So, anyway, i'm really excited. so I've been talking to Cathy Nguyen. If you dont know who she is, look her up on youtube.com. She's a really good singer. Well, I'm getting her to perform at our ACS benefit conert. yay!!!! i'm excited. okay...

well, for now, i'm going to gooooooo!!!!!!

Me oh My

What to say...

I just wanted to post a blog, just because.

What did i do today?
school like always.... Oh, I went to the gym today during 6th period. Today was the first day I really played around with a vball. Margaret and I decided to pepper and wow... I actually was doing really well. I was able to dig every ball. It was really nice. After, Harp had me go toss the ball for the boys during hitting lines and after when they started playing, he (i'm continuing it now, the 4th when i started it the 2nd, whoops) had me serve. I did well.

I don't remember what i wanted to talk about anymore.

Yesterday was amazing. I really wish I could just relive it.

Cheese?

Well, I didn't know what to title this.

So, last night was my Winter "Semi"-Formal. I hate that they added the semi part. It sounds retarded. I had a great time. I think... There were so many things running through my head as i was dancing. It was my last winter formal ever... and now the only thing left is PROM.

well, i have to go for a little, Genelle is calling me.
ok, I'm back.

So yesterday, after school, we (Kathy, Romi, TenTen and me) went to Subway where Cken picked us up. We went to Long's Drugstore, to TenTen's, then my house, where we all got ready. Kathy has bare minerals, and i want it!!! I've always wanted it... (btw, my color is medium tan, if you wanna get me some!). People arrived at 6:30pm, except a few people we had to wait for, but its okay!! We all took a bunch of pictures. I'm really bummed right now, because I can't find my camera. I'm gonna cry if i don't find it.

Yesterday was fun being able to hang out with all my friends. It's weird, i didn't really think i had that many friends, but then I realized, there a lot of them that i am pretty close to. I'm glad I was able to have ALL of my friends to come together... because I know some of them don't like some of my other friends. But they all had a great time, i think.

Womanizer! Womanizer! Oh, you're a womanizer!! haha, i think that was the highlight of my night. And Sanamluang is delicious.

The only thing I was kind of bummed about was the fact that I was home pretty early. I know I shouldn't compare myself, but I guess since I'm the younger one, I'm not able to do the same things my sister did when she was my age. I always end up needing to be home, way before she came home.

Well, its okay, i was tired anyway... kinda. Plus, I shouldn't leave my mom home alone at night. =/


Even though last night was awesome, it still doesn't compare to me just being there at Youth Night with my friends and loved ones, worshiping and learning about God.

AWESOMEness

I have an awesome best friend. or best friends.

I love you angelic!! (she's next to me!) She's kinda crazy, she's talking to her phone, not someone on the phone.

Well, I had a GREAT break... It's been the best break i've had since i can even remember. K. I'll update later!

time to watch ABDC!



well, actually i wanted to thank my best friend for making my break the best break ever!!

I NEED TO be consistent.

Well, right now I'm here at my neighbor Jeff's house right now because there is a despedida (did I spell that correctly?) for Jeff and Jerome. They are both leaving back to Berkeley and I think the training camp for the army. I just had the best food ever here...again. Tita Ella is such a good cook. The sinigang and the spaghetti were both amazing... but the chocolate cake was WOW. Almost every year I ask her to make it for my birthday. It taste sooooo good, if you try it you too will be like "WOW!"... My gosh, talking about it makes my mouth water...

Anyway, why I think I need to do these blogs constantly is because I think I need to start looking back at all this to see how far I've come and what has changed in my life. My sister told me that she was talking to my cousin and the one thing she regretted when she was in Europe was not writing a journal while she was there about all the experiences she had. Thinking about it, it's kind of the same thing... even though it is just my normal everyday life, I have to enjoy it and really realize how amazing it can be, and that we will never experience the same exact thing over again.

So I know it’s been a while since I've blogged, but so many things happened since I last did.... (Haha, I just had to go check when I last did and had a little glance of what I last wrote about).

So, what I saw was talking about just winning League Championships and trying to make it all the way to City Finals. Well, we got there!! I really wish I had enjoyed it more... We ended up losing to Palisades, and are now ranked #2 in the Lost Angeles City Section. Although we didn't win, it was a big accomplishment. Our volleyball team hasn't gotten that far for many years until now. I love my volleyball team so much though.... I can't believe it though, that now I'm done with volleyball, because I don't think I will play in college. (I’ll still play in Fil-am!). It's so weird though thinking, now I'm done with vball, and it just makes me realize how close I am to being done with high school. One more semester to go, and I'm off!

I really wonder what is going to happen with college. I'm done with all my applications except one. It's the one school I really want to go to. I know that it's not too hard to get into, and most likely I will get in, but it's the amount of money it cost. I guess I just need to pray and ask God what I need to do about it. I'm already looking at scholarships and grants, and all that stuff (thanks to Kathy for that... and basically making sure I get into college), but I really hope I can afford it and go to the school that I want to go to. I was just thinking if all these applications and all the things that I am doing is worth it. My sister got into good schools, but she only ended up going to CC. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing, but looking back on it all, doing the apps and looking for ways to afford it all, it would all just be a waste. I just hope that it will all work out.

Well, It's winter break right now. I NEED to do my driver's ed. It's been a year since I last tried doing it. I was almost done last year, and then I never finished it. I told myself I was going to finish it this break… and I hope I do, I only have one week left to do it. And I still have to do my winter assignment for English; I can’t even remember what it is right now. I just have to check online, because that's where it all is. ONE WEEK TO FINISH ALL MY GOALS. Gah, I hope I can do it.... I have to say it! I CAN DO IT!

It is also the New Year!!! Wow, can you believe that 2008 is now done. So many things have happened. I'm so amazed that I was able to get through it all. As some of you know, my dad past away March 31, 2008. Til this day it still puts tears in my eyes knowing that he is not physically here with us anymore. I remember when I was younger; I used to think about the day of my wedding. I wanted it to be a in a big church with so many people, having EVERYONE I knew being there and watching me and my one true love getting married. I pictured myself going down the aisle with my dad by my side. It hurts to think about it now... hmmm... maybe I can have my mom walk me down the aisle instead. That would've been really nice. =] Well, dad, I miss you so much, with all my heart. I know one day I will see you again in heaven. It's really nice to know that he is there, and I know, because I too believe in God, and I accepted Him as my Lord and Savior, and I know he sent His son to earth only to die for us... that I because of Him would now go to heaven. Hehe, it's a very nice thought. Hmmm.... Well, I still have God here to be my Father. I look to Him when I need comfort and I need someone to be there for me. (Wow, writing this blog is making me tear up... but its a good thing, I'm realizing a lot of things as I'm writing this. =]) My gosh... THANK YOU LORD! for always being there for me. <3

hmmm... Well, for year 2009, I think to start it off, I have to set some goals for myself.

1) Doing my devotions and praying consistently

2) Having a Godly relationships with my family, friends, and all my loved ones.

3) Prioritize all that I need to do

4) Do all my work in all my classes and focus.

5) Get my permit and my license (have to finish permit part my next week).

6) Continue to strive for my relationship to grow with God.

7) Make sure that I my heart is in the right place for all that I do.

8) Spend more time with my family

9) Have my relationship become stronger with my sister.

10) Look to God first when I need someone to be there for me.