Doesn't feel like it's all over

Well, right now I am home. It doesn't feel right though. After graduating, it still didn't hit me that i will never see those people again. Oh, btw, i graduated last Thursday. I really will miss everyone, even though i don't feel it yet.

I'm so bummed right now though. I feel like I can't keep both of my groups from high school close. I feel like i have to choose one or the other. I know we are already done, but it's hard.

The same thing happened like what happened at prom.
So, here are the groups:
Group 1: Kathy, TenTen, Victor, Rohit, Romi, Tiffany, Theresa, Daniel A.
Group 2: Chelzie, Jenny, Allison, Gerianne, Madeline, Ashley, Daniel F., Daniel M.

I used to be close with group two in the beginning of HS, and as time went on, my new group became group one. I really love them both, but its just so hard. Grad nite didn't turn out the way i wanted it to. My phone never had signal the whole time and i never noticed. I was waiting for a call, and I too tried calling. I got the grp 2 before we finished and they thanked me for the shirts chelzie and I made. (btw, that took so long, so you better appreciate it.) But i spent most of my time with group 1. After grad nite i said my goodbyes to a few people. Both groups asked me to go out after, but i told them both that my mom told me to go home. So i went home.

I'm kinda grr though. I'm sure i told her. She thinks I went with group 1, (and doesn't say it to my face, but is mad at me) when i told her i had to go home.

I am so glad ER came with me though, I wouldn't have survived without him there.

... Well, now its 2AM in the morning and I started reflecting on HS, and i finally started to tear up. No more 35 minute lunches in the quad. No more Mr. Ramon. No more Key Club or ACS meetings. No more trying to avoid getting detentions. No more going to the library at nutrition and lunch trying to finish typing and printing up either a gov or english assignment. No more waiting for my mom til 6 in the library when i have no ride. No more. No more.

Although I did have some hard times at Granada, I think I will truly miss it and all the people there. And I know things yet unsettled will soon be resolved.

Haha, and the day after graduation, i thought i'd be away from there for atleast a month. Nope, i went there the next day for the banquet. Good Job Eunice! Well, i got a $20 chipotle gift card. woot woot!


Saturday, Kalayaan festival. Went okay. My mom's boss won the Wii and Guitar Hero. Hopefully he'll let us keep it.


Sunday, Pop's party. Lots of Fun. Long Boarding, Peppering (volleyball), Lakers Game, Dirty Hot Dogs. Good times.

Monday, Tennis Championships for Individuals. Dom and Aaron. Silver is NOT bad.

Tuesday, finishing up this blog. hopefully cardio kickboxing tonight.


I need to do a lot of stuff though before I leave to the PI. Leaving in now, 3 weeks. Scary. Am I prepared. I made a list of things to do on a whiteboard so my mom won't complain anymore that she doesn't know what i am doing.

Lets see:
1. Physical
2. Eyes (new contacts and glasses)
3. Health Form
4. Financial Stuff
5. All forms
6. Placement Exam
7. Support Letters
8. Immunization Record
9. VISA
10. Shirts
11. Shopping for PI
12. Orientation

Hopefully (it can't just be hopefully, it must be) I finished before i leave.

June 29. Goodbye America. Hello Philippines.